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Here it is. :)

Here's a CD, probably the first in a series from me. Its called, appropriately enough, Your First Step. Guess what the theme is? :)








1 )Death Cab For Cutie - Styrofoam Plates
2) Tori Amos - Me and a Gun
3) No Doubt - Don't Speak
4) Mazzy Star - Fade Into You
5) Love Spit Love - Am I Wrong (Angus Soundtrack Version)
6) Marylin Manson - The Reflecting God
7) Deftones - Teething
8) Moxy Fruvous - I Will Hold On
9) Belly - Judas My Heart
10) Tori Amos - Jackie's Strength
11) VAST - Pretty When You Cry
12) Third Eye Blind - Jumper
13) Queens of the Stone Age - Feel Good Hit of the Summer
14) The Eels - P.S. You Rock My World




First Male Figure: Deathcab for Cutie - Styrofoam Plates (The Photo Album, Barsuk Records)
First Boyfriend: Tori Amos - Me and a Gun (Little Earthquakes, Atlantic Records)
First Breakup: No Doubt - Don't Speak (Tragic Kingdom, Interscope Records)
First Love: Mazzy Star - Fade Into You (So Tonight That I Might See, EMI)
First Heartbreak: Love Spit Love - Am I Wrong (Angus Soundtrack Version) {Originally appeared on the album Love Spit Love, Imago Records}
First Physical Fight: Marylin Manson - The Reflecting God (Antichrist Superstar, Interscope Records)
First Car: Deftones - Teething (The Crow: City of Angels Motion Picture Soundtrack, Hollywood Records)
First Boy Cried For: Moxy Fruvous - I Will Hold On (Thornhill, Bottom Line Records)
First Betrayal By A Friend: Belly - Judas My Heart (King, Reprise Records)
First Semester at College: Tori Amos - Jackie's Strength (from the choirgirl hotel, Atlantic Records)
First Time: VAST - Pretty When You Cry (Visual Audio Sensory Theatre, Elektra Records)
First Brush With Mortality: Third Eye Blind - Jumper (Third Eye Blind, Elektra Records)
First Apartment: Queens of the Stone Age (R: Restricted - To Everyone, Everywhere, All The Time, Interscope Records)
First Boyfriend Who Doesn't Suck: The Eels - P.S. You Rock My World (Electro-Shock Blues, DreamWorks Records)



Lyrics



Deathcab for Cutie - styrofoam plates
there's a saltwater film on the jar of your ashes: i threw them to sea but a gust blew them backwards and the sting in my eyes
that you then inflicted was par for the course just as when you were living.

it's no stretch to say you were not quite a father but a donor of seeds to a poor single mother that would raise us alone, we'd never see the money that went down your throat
through the hole in your belly.

thirteen years old in the suburbs of denver
standing in line for Thanksgiving dinner at the catholic chuch. the servers wore crosses
to shield from the sufferance plauging the others. styrofoam plates, cafateria tables charity reeks of cheap wine and pity
and i'm thinking of you. i do every year
when we count all our blessings
and wonder what we're doing here.

you're a disgrace to the concept of family
the priest won't divulge that fact in his homily and i'll stand up and scream
if the mourning remain quiet, you can deck out a lie in a suit but i won't buy it.
i won't join in the procession that's speaking their peace. using five dollar words while praising his integrity. and just cause he's gone it doesn't change the fact: he was a bastard in life thus a bastard in death.





Tori Amos - Me and a Gun

5am friday morning thursday night far from sleep
I'm still up and driving can't go home obviously
So I'll just change direction cause they'll soon know where I live
And I wanna live
Got a full tank and some chips

It was me and a gun and a man on my back
And I sang "holy holy" as he buttoned down his pants


You can laugh
Its kind of funny
Things you think
Times like these
Like I haven't seen BARBADOS so I must get out of this
Yes I wore a slinky red thing
Does that mean I should spread for you, your friends
Your father, Mr Ed


It was me and a gun and a man on my back
But I haven't seen BARBADOS so I must get out of this


And I know what this means
Me and Jesus a few years back used to hang
And he said "it's your choice babe just remember
I don't hink you'll be back in 3 days time so you choose well"
Tell me whats right
Is it my right to be on my stomach of Fred's Seville


It was me and a gun and a man on my back
But I haven't seen BARBADOS so I must get out of this


And do you know CAROLINA
Where the biscuits are soft and sweet
These things go through your head when there's a man on your back
And you're pushed flat on your stomach it's not a classic caddilac


It was me and a gun and a man on my back
But I haven't seen BARBADOS so I must get out of this
I haven't seen BARBADOS so I must get out of this





No Doubt - Don't Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always
I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are
You and me
I can see us dying ... are we?
Hush , hush , darling




Mazzy Star - Fade Into You

I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life
You go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there.
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
A stranger's light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then smiles cover your heart
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew




Love Spit Love - Am I Wrong

there's too much
that i keep to myself
and i turn my back on my faith
it's like glass
when we break
i wish no one in my place
and i've seen
you don't need their seeds
when their dirt goes in deep
and i'm lost in sleep
i can't stay
in this place
i can't stand
when the room turns round
on my fate
you give no guarantees
there's no promise
i can keep
i can't stand
i can't see my way
i feel blind
on my feet
i can't stay too long
am i wrong?
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
i'm so tired
of my mood
and sleep comes
with a knife, fork and a spoon
you're so pale
in your face
you let life
get in your way
and i've seen
you don't need their seeds
when their dirt goes in deep
and i'm lost in sleep
am i wrong?
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck
goodbye, lay the blame on luck




Marylin Manson - The Reflecting God

Your world is an ashtray
We burn and coil like cigarettes
The more you cry your ashes turn to mud
It's the nature of the leeches, the virgin's
Feeling cheated
You've only spent a second of your life
My world is unaffected, there is an exit here
I say it is and then it's true,
There is a dream inside a dream,
I'm wide awake the more I sleep
You'll understand when I'm dead
I went to god just to see, and I was looking at me
Saw heaven and hell were lies
When I'm god everybody dies
Scar/can you feel my power?
Shoot here and the world gets smaller
Scar/scar/can you feel my power?
One shot and the world gets smaller
Let's jump upon the sharp swords
And cut away our smiles
Without the threat of death
There's no reason to live at all
My world is unaffected, there is an exit here
I say it is and then it's true,
There is a dream inside a dream,
I'm wide awake the more I sleep
You'll understand when I'm dead
"each thing i show you is a piece of my death"
Shoot shoot shoot motherfucker
No salvation, no forgiveness
"this is beyond your experience"
Forgiveness...




Deftones - Teething

First you smile at lord, I found you first
Liquified inside you, But it hurts if I even see you
Make you smile, I look over and cry, I get by!!
But that's to bad you get stuck with all alone!
Look at yourself you ain't no genius!!!
You want to find, you won't find me,
I'm coming home, but I
First you raining for, It can't be seen
Liquified him more and more, fuck you bitch!
to go and I go and I and
I don't know Cause I'm sick
and this ain't fun at all!!!
But that's too bad you get stuck with whores
Look at yourself you ain't no genius
you want to fly, you won't find me I'm coming home I
But that's too bad you get stuck with whores
Look at yourself you ain't no genius
you want to find you won't find me I'm coming home,hurt
You got hair, clothes,the fashion, the cash flow
How the fuck you gonna tell me what you don't know
You got hair, clothes,the fashion, the cash flow
How the fuck you gonna tell me something
Your this close to fashion, the cash flow
How the fuck you gonna tell me what you don't know
Your this close to fashion,the cash flow
How the fuck you gonna tell me something Tell me something
Say your prayers
But that's too bad you get stuck with all alone
Look at yourself you ain't no genius
you want to find, you won't find me
I'm coming home I




Moxy Fruvous - I Will Hold On

I'll hold you if you feel you'll fall
I'll hold your hand if you just need a friend
I'll hold the line so you can call
I'll hold the feelings you don't want to end
You know that it's true
When I hold you
There'll be no secrets
I believe it
I'll hold your tears if you must cry
I'll hold your breath if that won't make you blue
I'll hold the truth if you must lie
and I'll hold off choice till you know what to do
You know that it's true
When I hold you
There are no secrets
I believe it
So I will hold on
And if that's not what you're used to
Then I may refuse to
Hold off
well, maybe that's not what you're used to
How can I refuse you?
I'll hold the train till you get on
I'll hold the mirror so you can fix your hair
I'll hold the pain till it is gone
and I'll hold my ground when people stop and stare
You know that it's true
When I've held you
There are no secrets
You must believe it
I'll hold the beating of my heart
I'll hold my breath if you will tell me to
I'll hold the hope that we won't part
and I'll hold off death so I can live with you
You knew it was true
When I held you
There were no secrets
I believed it
So I will hold on
And if that's not what you're used to
Then I may refuse to
Hold off
well, maybe that's not what you're used to
How can I refuse you?
So I will hold on
And if that's not what you're used to
Then I may refuse to
Hold off
well, maybe that's not what you're used to
How can I refuse you?





Belly - Judas My Heart
Where I live,
there's a blanket of gauze and it covers the scars
Of the drunks who are hungry as ever
Where I live,
There's a blanket of sighs and it covers the stars
In my heart, I'm as hungry as ever
This is the room where we met

Where I live,
There's a lady who walks everywhere on her hands
Doesn't trust where her feet want to take her

Where I live,
There's this lady
who walks everywhere on her hands
She don't trust where her feet want to take her

(not in here)
This is the room where we met
(not in here)
This is the dress I had on
This is not the moment you fear
When you wake up and no one is there

Low hangs the moon
(oh oh)
Inside this room
Low hangs the moon
(oh oh)
Inside this room

So that I'm a witness when you Judas my heart
Judas my heart

Where I live,
There's a blanket of sighs and it covers the stars
In my heart, I'm as hungry as ever

Where I live,
I'm afraid that I walk everywhere on my hands
I don't trust where my feet want to take me

(not in here)
This is the room where we met
(not in here)
This is the dress I had on
This is not the moment I fear
I say "I" instead of "she" now you're here


Low hangs the moon
(oh oh)
Inside this room
Low hangs the moon
(oh oh)
Inside this room

So that I'm a witness when you Judas my heart
Judas my heart
Judas my heart
Judas my heart

Can I get a witness when you Judas my heart again?
Can I get a witness when you do this to my heart again?
Can I get a witness when you Judas my heart again?

Where I live there's a lady who walks everywhere
on her hands Just like me doesn't trust
where her feet want to take her again
and her feet want to take her again
and her feet want to take her again

She loves me
Yeah, yeah, yeah

She loves me
Yeah, yeah, yeah




Tori Amos - Jackie's Strength

A Bouvier till her wedding day
shots rang out the police came
mama layed me on the front lawn
and prayed for Jackie's strength
feeling old by 21
never thought my day would come
my bridesmaids getting laid
I pray for Jackie's strength
make me laugh
say you know what you want
you said we were the real thing
so I show you some more and I learn
what black magic can do
make me laugh
say you know you can turn
me into the real thing
so I show you some more and I learn

stickers licked on lunch boxes
worshipping David Cassidy
yeah I mooned him once on Donna's box
she's still in recovery
sleep-overs Beene's got some pot
you're only popular with anorexia
so I turn myself inside out
in hope someone will see

make me laugh
say you know what you want
you said we were the real thing
so I show you some more and I learn
what black magic can do
make me laugh
say you know you can turn
me into the real thing
so I show you some more
and I learn

I got lost on my wedding day
typical, the police came
but virgins always get backstage
no matter what they've got to say
if you love enough you'll lie alot
guess they did in Camelot
mama's waiting on my front lawn
I pray I pray I pray
for Jackie's Strength





VAST - Pretty When You Cry
you're made of my rib or baby
you're made of my sin
and i can't tell where
your lust ends
and where your love begins

i didn't want to hurt you baby
i didn't want to hurt you
i didn't want to hurt you
but you're pretty when you cry

and the moon gives me
permission and i enter
through her eyes
she's losing her virginity and
all her will to compromise

i didn't want to hurt you baby
i didn't want to hurt you
i didn't want to hurt you
but you're pretty when you cry

i didn't want to fuck you baby
i didn't want to fuck you
i didn't want to fuck you
but you're pretty
when you're mine

i didn't really love you baby
i didn't really love you
i didn't really love you
but I'm pretty when i lie

you hurt me baby
i hurt you baby

if you knew how much i love you
you would run away
but when i treat you bad
it always makes you want to stay

i didn't want to hurt you baby
i didn't want to hurt you baby
i didn't want to hurt you baby
i didn't want to hurt you baby




Third Eye Blind - Jumper

I wish you would step back
From that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away
I wish you would step back
From that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
Well he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you would step back from
That ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
I would understand, I would understand
I would understand, I would understand
Can you put the past away





Queens of the Stone Age - Feel Good Hit of the Summer

Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol

Co-co-co-co-cocaine
Co-co-co-co-cocaine
Co-co-cocaine
Co-co-co-co-cocaine

Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol

Co-co-co-co-cocaine
Co-co-co-co-cocaine
Co-co-cocaine
Co-co-co-co-cocaine

Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vacodin, Marijuana,

Co-co-co-co-cocaine




The Eels - P.S. You Rock My World

I was at a funeral the day i realized
I wanted to spend my life with you
Sitting down on the steps at the
old post office
The flag was flying at half-mast
And i was thinking' bout how
everyone is dying
And maybe it's time to live
I don't know where we're going
I don't know what we'll do
Walked in to the Thrif-tee
Saw the man with the hollow eyes
who didn't give me all my change
But it didn't me this time
'cause I know I've only got
this moment
And it's good
I went to the gas station
Old woman honked her horn
Waiting for me to fix her car
I don't know where we're going
I don't know what we'll do
Laying in bed tonight I was thinking
and listening to all the dogs
and the sirens and the shots
And how a careful man tries
to didge the bullets
While a happy man takes a walk
And maybe it's time to live


If I get 8 bazillion requests for a copy, it might take me longer to get it mailed, but yeah. :)
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Ooh, yes, copy please!
Oooh! I'd like a copy!